Dear person I’m jealous of

I honestly can’t say that I’m really jealous of anyone. Some people might have certain things that I might be envious of, but I know they have their own obstacles and struggles just like everyone else does.

I guess you could say I’m jealous of the people who get to see my dad. I know I shouldn’t feel that way, but I wish I saw him more often. Most of my efforts go unnoticed. It hurts knowing that no matter what I do or how hard I try, things between us will never be the way they used to be. Growing up you’re supposed to idolize my dad. It just sucks to constantly be disappointed, even though I don’t know why I continue to get my hopes up.

I just wish he cared half as much as I did, and if he does, I wish he knew how to show it.